I never really had a lot of friends, just a few who I shared my inner most feelings to. I won't deny that I categorized them, but mostly to groups which I can break down and not be judged and those who I only let in on the surface. All of us have this walls that we put up around us as a protection. It would really take a lot of guts to pour out to someone about something that is so personal to you. Either that, or you are just very trust able of others.
I promised not to dwell on this anymore, not to reminisce those times that we shared, laughters', tears and even fights that we had together. But even so, you chose to back away. To just conveniently disappear. I still do regard you as a friend, but no matter how forgiving and understanding a person can be, my tolerance is quite low. I am sorry that I think so lowly of you now. I am sorry that I don't have that much faith on you now. But mostly, I am sorry for giving up on you now. All I am asking for is to please not just stroll in back and act as if nothing has happened and all is normal between us.
This sucks but I can't feel for this anymore. Maybe I'll mature along the way and learn that it is ohkay. It is ohkay to just conveniently forget.But for now, I don't think it's ohkay.
Not one bit
